A Bit Too Much

We had voodoo

God, did we have voodoo

We were an ocean away
And still I could feel him
Deep inside my womb stirring

It used to bring me such joy
And a tiny little giggle at the magic

And how he could make me long
Make me lose myself to want

Until one day it just stopped
No matter how many times 
I stroked our talisman
The magic had just died

I wanted to believe I had 
Failed in some way
I wasn’t enough
In some way
But I was too much
Maybe a little too old
Just a tiny bit too dull
Too experienced, too candid

Even in my gypsy dancing splendour
Just not quite what he required
To keep him hard, to keep him lusting
Perhaps he always knew 
I had a creeping expiration date

For me, I just keep dancing
From one campfire to the next
Knowing I was never not enough

But just possibly

A bit too much
 

One thought on “A Bit Too Much

  1. Firstly: incredible write. You are powerful in this place.

    Secondly: Me too! I’m going through the EXACT same thing right now. Here’s to the needy girls! May our hearts be always hungry for more life. I won’t give up my wants, they are what keep me alive and not simply existing. Onward to the next truth. Into ourselves.

    There is no love that compares. Turn your light inward and you will see what has been waiting for you all along. Xo

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