I have been thinking
about silence
today
Embracing it
Listening to it
There is that
lovely silence
born out of
connection
And that forced silence
that occurs
when you are afraid
to speak
to make a sound
And then there is
that silence
that slips
through the cracks
when living
is just too
overwhelming
When you have reached
your limit
for awhile
You close your eyes
go still
silent
and wait
Yesterday
I saw where I will
be receiving
my chemo treatments
for the next
five months
I have a list
of all the possible
dire side effects
Some of them traumatic
like the loss of your hair
and your eyebrows
Some of them deadly
like septicaemia
The oncology people
are worried about me
It’s in their eyes,
their gestures,
their softened voices,
the way they feel the need
to just touch me
as if they could hold me here
with their touch
alone
So today
I have been
in a state
of too much
too much to think
too much to dream
I am quiet
The silence around me
is a heavy cloud
shielding me
from the harsh
realities of living
Slow
measured
breaths
Until I wake up
Again
❤ ❤ ❤ Silent with you in the best of ways.
Thank you. you wonderful woman.