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There will come a time

Yes
even for you

when life
will ask of you
the impossible

I have no
magic

Sometimes
I pretend I do
but I don’t

Its a kind of
gossamer world
that makes my eyes
sparkle
keeps my dreams
alive

The only thing
I think I know

Is that nothing
stays the same,
lasts forever

There is no
magic elixir

no obscure
incantation

no absolute
and forever
healing

There is only
beginning again

20 May 2019
West Sussex

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Hello

I used to wish
for closure
for proper
goodbyes

With time
and loss
comes
a kind of
knowing
like
blood flowing

like pollen
dancing
in sunlight

Now I know
I just needed
more Hellos.

17 May 2019
West Sussex

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Blue Like the Sea

My blanket is blue
blue, like the sea

If I look
in the right way
in the right light
I can see it
moving
against me
like waves

and if I close my eyes
I can lose myself
in mermaid dreams
and swimming
against the tide
until I soften
and let go

and I am in
California
again
laughing
and falling
and tumbling
into the arms
of the sea

and I wonder
when I forgot
what my laugh
sounds like

until I reach
for my blanket
blue like the sea
and fall
into dreaming
of swimming
and breathing

15 May 2016
West Sussex

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The End

It was a game of bingo
or was it craps
or was it his voice
whispering
my name, softened
and rhythmic
and flowing
arcing
reaching
for a pause
searching
waiting
for the end

14 May 2019
West Sussex

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Hard Ground, Manic and Endless

I am thinking
about you
looking out my window
watching spring
wishing I hadn’t forgotten
how to laugh

watching you
even now
can still
make me smile
and stumble
reaching
for empty air
that rush
of soft voices
home

Thinking about you
I give up
sit down
on hard ground
let my teeth
slide into soft peach
trying to remember
the sound of you
manic and endless

5 April 2019

 

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