Winter Wind

The wind is dancing
loud, rhythmic
pressing
against my windows
night twirling
out of control
until the sun breaks
and my world
is filled with
debris
brittle leaves
forgotten bits
of refuse
promises
broken and damaged
unrecognisable

Tomorrow
never comes
but if you stop
and listen
to the night
swirl around you
it ceases to matter

22 February 2020

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Forgotten

My body
has turned
tyrant

I have
forgotten

how to listen
how to see

The dawn chorus
used to slip between
the cracks
of my resistance
until hope
became
a beating heart

Now
the silence
is impenetrable

While my body
rants and raves
at the unfairness
at the insistence
that each tiny
movement
each birth
of an idea
must be
accompanied
by pain
by impossibilities

It is 3 am
I am trying
to teach myself
how to listen again
even as my hip
begins to spasm

The birds
will come soon
I’m trying to be ready

23 December 2019
Sussex Coast

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Sunset on the South Downs ~ Photography by me

We Watched the Moon

Last night
we watched
the moon

It was golden
and slowly
disappearing
into the darkness
of a summer night
until it stopped
hanging there
like a sacred vessel
waiting to be filled

I’m just
a microscopic
particle
a molecular
miracle

Still

for a moment
I think
I believe

I filled the moon
up with my breath

and a sigh

and a shared smile
before we returned
to our lives once again

with wisps of the sacred
trailing behind us

18 July 2019

New

There will come a time

Yes
even for you

when life
will ask of you
the impossible

I have no
magic

Sometimes
I pretend I do
but I don’t

Its a kind of
gossamer world
that makes my eyes
sparkle
keeps my dreams
alive

The only thing
I think I know

Is that nothing
stays the same,
lasts forever

There is no
magic elixir

no obscure
incantation

no absolute
and forever
healing

There is only
beginning again

20 May 2019
West Sussex

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Hello

I used to wish
for closure
for proper
goodbyes

With time
and loss
comes
a kind of
knowing
like
blood flowing

like pollen
dancing
in sunlight

Now I know
I just needed
more Hellos.

17 May 2019
West Sussex

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