Crossroads

It is summer
and I am ill
falling
fast

I am listening
to the blues
to Robert Johnson
and wondering
about crossroads
and old roads
and intersecting paths
and the old ways
chants heard
in lush green leaves
prayers
and blessings
witchcraft

It is summer
and I am surrounded
by roses
and lavender
and geraniums
and hanging baskets
with unknown flowers
cascading
over the sides
like a floral invocation
to unnamed goddesses
everywhere

The wind
blows
in the afternoon
It no longer
plays havoc
with my curls
They’re gone away now
wherever it is
illness takes them

At night the air stills
stars sparkle
and glitter
like you once said
my eyes did

It is summer
and I am surviving

loss
and renewal
and relentless sickness
and time
in all its
temporary majesty

20 June 2018
on the Sussex Coast

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the fragility of summer

thoughts on the coming new year

I believe
Life
is always
teaching us
things
miraculous things
about ourselves

always
throwing
opportunities
in our path
for more growth

The Year of 2016
will always be
My Year of Loss

and learning

acceptance
letting go
allowing
myself to grieve
for all
I had been
given
and all
that had been
taken away

discovering
the pain of loss
while accepting
loss and grieving
as an integral
part of life

learning
to resist
to fight
to push
hard
against it

to attempt
to escape
it all

only
prolongs
the pain

I don’t know
what this
next year
will bring

I don’t make
resolutions
for the new year

I mostly
just hope
I end each year
having learned
the joy in just
being me

Still…

This new year
is different

I can already
feel it’s difference
just coming
over the horizon

So
on this
last day
of
My Year of Loss
I find myself
asking
for more courage
more grace
under pressure

And the gift
of healing

for myself

for everyone

 

Briançon, Hautes-Alpes, France
Briançon, Hautes-Alpes, France ~ photography by me, Robin Dalton September 2004

Happy New Year!

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Let’s ring in the changes with hope, joy and faith in a blessed 2013!